Rave's Blog

Continuing my legacy

2011-10-10T11:19:00.000-07:00

well guys I'm back, And I have news, my sister married the idiot, I started dating a wonderful girl , her name is Tanya, and BTTF-LC is going to be released in oct
http://www.bttf-lc.net

see you guys later

oh great

2010-12-01T14:46:00.000-08:00

You may have noticed some changes on my blog , well that's because I lied allot and I have fixed it, anyone else realize how much my life sucks?
well I had the exact same foot surgery as my father, my mother got ahold of my blog (before I fixed it) so now she thinks I'm Bi curious, My sister is still wanting to marry an idiot. (he failed a GED test 3 times),they 'think' they have a house, but really they are fixing a roof on a house that they don't have a contract to, my dad was fighting with my mother again, they tease me about getting a ps3 for christmas but we don't have the money.however I'm getting a graphics card for Christmas from my Nana (grandmother), now I need a DVD burner and I'll be back where I started with a crappy computer but with a better graphics card

The surgery

2010-06-05T10:40:00.000-07:00

Well guys I'm back, My dad had a reconstructive surgery on his right foot, he will be in the cast for 3 months, my life is still going as planned , my sister is going to have her baby real soon, her name will be 'Willow dawn' I'm about to hand out with my online friends cause i have no life lol, well see you around

its been a long time

2010-03-21T22:55:00.000-07:00

I am sorry as I have not posted in a very long time

I cannot say I have been busy,I cannot say I have done anything ,really.

I have been playing Vice city online lately,by the way I deleted my Myspace I am slowly trying to disappear from the internet.I know it sounds a bit stupid as I have a high reputation for Saram animations but I will soon be only rave for Saram animations I will no longer be a public person,I dont know.... maybe I am losing my mind,you remember that girl Shawna ...well she doesn't talk to me anymore after the whole playing dead incident and to make matters worse Indy moved in with his girlfriend and forgot to tell me she has a 6 month old son and he wont be able to talk to me as often anymore...THAT MEANS NEVER!!! my life sucks ,I know you are probably thinking allot of people think their life sucks but look at it from my point of view I am a game designer that never leaves his room and cant even keep a reputation online

she's back!

2010-01-06T20:54:00.000-08:00

as he walked into that house again where all of his friends were just sitting there in the living room he dropped his black duffle bag on the floor and they turned their heads to him they imediately jumped up and gave him a hug not caring that he wasn't dead just happy to see him again. he wispered to them "i'm forever yours"

-- If only it happened like that...

in her eyes

2010-01-02T23:06:00.000-08:00

It's a saturday night
Nothing will go wrong
But if it does do i care?
I just don't know how to run
It's a saturday night
And i hope you believe
My heart is calling your name
So hear me out when i say

I can see it in her eyes
When she turns to me and smiles
Everything feels so right
Until the morning light

I can see it in her eyes
When she turns to me and smiles
Everything feels so right
Until the morning light are you ready to party it's a saturday night
Nothing will go wrong
But if it does do i care?
I just don't know how to run
It's a saturday night
And i hope you believe
My heart is calling your name
So hear me out when i say

I can see it in her eyes
When she turns to me and smiles
Everything feels so right
Until the morning light

"Are you ready"

I can see it in her eyes

beer in a bar

2009-12-30T11:13:00.001-08:00

I`m still smiling like a beer in a bar

I`m staring in the mirror while i`m doing my hair

I`m putting on my clothes

When i go down the stairs

I open up my mini bar

And make myself a drink

I`m not an alcoholic but i know what you think

My mood is getting higher

When it`s knocking on my door

It`s my party home, boys and a girl i want to score

And i don`t have a time to

Take her for a ride

We are going to a crazy college party tonight

-from myspace, come on!-

What if people just gave a damn, about if i made this music with computer programme

I can`t play the drums or guitar but i`m still smiling like a beer in bar

I know that this is a weird song` but you can tell somebody if it`s right or wrong

I just want to show what i can do

So sit right back while i`m talking to you

-to all the on-line party people out there!-

Arriving to the party

Everyone is there

We are going to have it awesome, i can feel it in the air

I`m going to the backyard and what do i see?

All the girls are shaking with their xxx in front of me

Well this is not my cup of tea if you know what i mean

What if people just gave a damn, about if i made this music with computer programme

I can`t play the drums or guitar but i`m still smiling like a beer in a bar

I know that this is a weird song but who can tell somebody if it`s right or wrong

I just want to show what i can do

So sit right back while i`m talking to you

-alright mates, are you ready to a party??!!-

green eyes

2009-12-09T14:55:00.000-08:00

You've got the biggest green eyes they've ever seen
And in that red dress
There's no contest
You're the prettiest one around
And you reach down in your purse to check your phone
And already there's five guys trying to light it
When they realize

That everybody wants to know your name
And they're just thinking of the perfect words to break the ice
But every time it's just in vain
Cause you're not impressed
But you're so polite

I know I'm not the sharpest knife you've ever seen
I don't have the clothes
I don't have the hair
I know whats going on and I'm self aware
And for some weird reason
That meens more to you
Than what any two bit scene kid could say to you

Cause everybody wants to know your name
And they're just thinking of the perfect words to break the ice
But every time it's just in vain
Cause you're not impressed
But you're so,

But you're so polite

back its been a while

2009-11-29T10:48:00.000-08:00

been busy...i am alive and well

my life is to dramatic to talk about for the moment

however i think everything's gonna be alright :)

heres the new poem

I try to discover
A little something to make me sweeter
Oh baby refrain from breaking my heart
I'm so in love with you
I'll be forever blue
That you give me no reason
Why you're making me work so hard

That you give me no
That you give me no
That you give me no
That you give me no

Soul, I hear you calling
Oh baby please give a little respect to me

And if I should falter
Would you open your arms out to me
We can make love not war
And live at peace in our hearts
I'm so in love with you
I'll be forever blue
What religion or reason
Could drive a man to forsake his lover

Don't you tell me no
Don't you tell me no
Don't you tell me no
Don't you tell me no

Soul, I hear you calling
Oh baby please give a little respect to me

I'm so in love with you
I'll be forever blue
That you give me no reason
You know you're making me work so hard

That you give me no
That you give me no
That you give me no
That you give me no

Soul, I hear you calling
Oh baby please give a little respect to me

Soul, I hear you calling
Oh baby please give a little respect to me

when you feel miserable

2009-11-19T00:42:00.000-08:00

time waits for no one
but you i'd wait for so long

but still i feel the times
of your rolling eyes around here

take a walk with a sweet girl
so sweet you know it's true
but you're wasting away
i just wish it would stay

take a walk down a highway
down my way
take a walk when you feel miserable

one date you'll find
your eyes and a woman who's kind
could you still fill the day
if you ran out of me

take a walk down a highway
down my way
take a walk when you feel miserable

take a walk down a highway
down my way.....

fade to black

2009-11-16T16:06:00.000-08:00

whats the point in living...i have know idea

you live the dream and then what

you get the girl... The cool car,huge house and kids...and then what

what do you gain...

it doesnt matter....

in the end we all fade to black

Life it seems will fade away
Drifting further every day
Getting lost within myself
Nothing matters, no one else

I have lost the will to live
Simply nothing more to give
There is nothing more for me
Need the end to set me free

Things not what they used to be
Missing one inside of me
Deathly lost, this can't be real
Cannot stand this hell I feel

Emptiness is filling me
To the point of agony
Growing darkness taking dawn
I was me but now he's gone

No one but me can save myself
But it's too late
Now I can't think
Think why I should even try

Yesterday seems as though
It never existed
Death greets me warm
Now I will just say goodbye

nothing else matters...

2009-11-08T22:17:00.000-08:00

So close, no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
and nothing else matters

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say
and nothing else matters

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
and nothing else matters

never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
but I know

So close, no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
and nothing else matters

never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
but I know

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us, something new
Open mind for a different view
and nothing else matters

never cared for what they say
never cared for games they play
never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
and I know

So close, no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
No, nothing else matters

smile

2009-11-05T22:46:00.001-08:00

You always had an eye for things that glittered
But I was far from being made of gold
I don't know how but I scraped up the money
I just never could quite tell you no

Just like when you were leaving Pennsylvania
goin' to see a friend Ohio
And I quit life so we could be together
I can't forget the way you looked at me

Just to see you smile
I'd do anything that you wanted me to
When all is said and done
I'd never count the cost
It's worth all that's lost
Just to see you smile

When you said time was all you really needed
I walked away and let you have your space
'Cause leavin' didn't hurt me near as badly
As the tears I saw rollin' down your face

And yesterday I knew just what you wanted
When you talked about him
So I told you that I was happy for you
And given the chance I'd lie again

Just to see you smile
I'd do anything... that you wanted me to
When all is said and done
I'd never count the cost
It's worth all that's lost
Just to see you smile

Just to see you smile
I'd do anything... that you wanted me to
When all is said and done
I'd never count the cost
It's worth all that's lost
Just to see you smile!

hey

2009-11-05T13:16:00.000-08:00

hey i havent talked to you guys in a while.....I am working on something big...i cant tell you what it is...but it is going to change lives and the gaming industry's for ever

well ttyl

alex ross's death

2009-10-27T22:16:00.000-07:00

alex actually died the funeral is in 2 days he was beaten to death in an alley

looks like another sad story

I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything

What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of shit
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here

What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end

You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way

heh :P

2009-10-26T20:17:00.000-07:00

one sad sad post later .......

hey whats up its rave with your fill on the week and boy do i have a story for you :P

Scene one

Friday night (10:30 pm)

The drive home was tiering, None the less i got home,Turned the computer on and said hi to my friends,browsed the web for a while and walked to the bedroom of my mother, here lies scene two

Scene Two

Friday night (11:00 pm)

Was greeted by Charles;My mother and spice, Spice told me that she was pregnant,My thoughts were *oh great*, i didn't really care too much,and here came the part i didnt want to hear

my mother said well what do you want it to call you and again my thoughts were *who cares?*

i said Rave i guess and she replied no! you can be called Uncle Rave or Uncle Eain *hence my middle name* at this time i walked out of the room

and here lies scene three

(the last scene for now)

Scene Three

Saturday Morning (9:00 am)

Woken up to a pregnancy test in a bag,In my face, Spice leaning over me and said we took another test, and i'm pregnant. Halfway awake I replied, *yeah i got that yesterday*. spent the day walking around doing nothing. Sitting around drawing on my pants with a sparpie pen.talking to my friends on the computer. ended my day doing nothing.

maybe i wasnt meant to love....

2009-10-25T01:10:00.000-07:00

maybe i wasnt meant to love

maybe i should just

drive down that paved road until something

happens

Wish I was too dead to cry
My self-affliction fades
Stones to throw at my creator
Masochists to which I cater
You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds

Wish I was too dead to care
If indeed I cared at all
Never had a voice to protest
So you fed me shit to digest
I wish I had a reason;
my flaws are open season
For this, I gave up trying
One good turn deserves my dying

You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds

Wish I'd died instead of lived
A zombie hides my face
Shell forgotten
with its memories
Diaries left
with cryptic entries

And you don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds

You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on:
I'll never live down my deceit

long time no post

2009-10-08T16:11:00.000-07:00

well i'm back..alive and doing well

abby is the only thing i care about right now i love her :) she is a sweet person she is good to be around god tired of the boredom ....already tried talking to the wall...i'm gonna talk to abby on skype lol

post 5

2009-10-05T09:41:00.000-07:00

Well its Monday. As I promised a new anime :)

anyways nothing new actually.

played this game called gypsy witch.

the object of the game is to think of your question while shuffling the cards then split them into 2 and put them back together while the person that knows what the cards means places them down and tells your future

I don't believe in this game

the only problem is i played it 6 times with 6 different outcomes of how my life is going to suck

however cards cant tell the future only god can

4th post

2009-10-02T21:41:00.000-07:00

well blog is still up... went out of town all day

new anime will be up in 3 days ...

and hopefully a good story its been a bad week so not much happened

post 3

2009-10-01T15:19:00.001-07:00

dear reader

other posts were deleted by request from shawna

she is now my best friend and nothing else I'm heart broken so i'm not sure what to do now

Seccond Post

2009-09-28T20:01:00.000-07:00

Dear Reader

It is me rave.Today I did my school as usual,Signed onto Skype. Talked to Zac and Mallory for a while. Shawna as usual paid no attention to me ...flirting with her. But I am destined to ask her out.

Until then I have no idea what I'm going to do. I figure the anime pic of the week. Will stay on until 7 days of posting has passed. Anyways that was way off course. i talked to Zac for the rest of the day.Thats all for now stay tuned and ill post more soon :)

First post

2009-09-27T20:37:00.000-07:00

Not sure what I'm supposed to do with a blog. So I guess. I'll start with explaining who I am. Then I'll post the anime pic of the week.

Well my name is Rave and I am 16 years old.I'm Home schooled and I like it. I Live In Texas USA. I guess you could say I'm in a relationship.

her name is Shawna She is 14 .I'm in love with her. But she wants to wait a while before we do anything. To see if theres anything there.

I plan to go to the service in 4 years I can go in 3 years. But i have to wait 4 years to change my last name. After the service. I plan to go into full sail university. To become a game programmer. So I can have a steady job. To buy a house. So I can support Shawna. So she will be able to move in. After that I have know idea what I want to do. maybe ask her to marry me?.... later down on the line that is.